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Monday, February 28, 2005

Birthday Celebrations

Well, in case you have been under a rock for the last week…yesterday was my birthday. As I have been informed by several of those younger than me, who like to joke on my old age, I am now a quarter of a century. If I were a car, I could be an antique. What a warm and fuzzy feeling that sends out. Despite the fact that this was my first birthday away from home, ever, it was rather incredible. For the first time since I moved here, I feel that I am really connecting with people and really making some real friends. Several people surprised me over the last few days with different little things, but overall it made for a really memorable and special birthday. My parents came down and visited last weekend. We went to Clearwater where we took a pirate cruise. Definite cool points as well as a job offer from the pirate captain. I’m currently looking into getting hired part time there. How fitting would that be…me as a part time pirate?! Aargh matey!Saturday, my friend Dave came by the bookstore to bring me what may be one of the coolest birthday presents ever…a poster from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory as well as an autographed photo. Yes, for all of you wondering, I now actually have a Johnny Depp autographed piece to add to my always-growing collection!Last night I had some friends over to watch the Oscars as part of my birthday celebration. I made Jell-O shots for the first time in what seems like years. My friend Joannie brought homemade cupcakes that she baked from scratch…very yummy and even more thoughtful. It was pretty cool that people were actually willing to put up with me through a viewing of the Oscars. (Did anyone else happen to notice that Johnny has his gold teeth back in?!) Rob bought me a very cool thumb ring that spins around and entertains my ADD-self…very cool.I was a bit disappointed that my other friend Rob didn’t show up, but when I got to work today he had a surprise for me. He had bought me a card and had everyone in the store sign it and he had also gotten me a cake. Wow! I was impressed. That kind of stuff means a lot to me.It was really good to see that I have some people here who are really looking out for me and that is cool.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Oh to meet Mr. Depp

So, for perhaps the first time in my life (if it has happened before now, it was unbeknownst to me) I am in the same city as Johnny Depp. That’s right, I was informed that he is in Orlando right now as we speak. I’ve even heard from a fairly good source what hotel he is staying in, but I suppose that would be super psycho stalkeresque to actually attempt to find out if the rumor is true by visiting the hotel myself. And besides, the man likes his privacy, no doubt.So I assume that Johnny has quite a few things to visit the states for this week. His good friend, Hunter Thompson’s funeral for one. Although, do you call it a funeral when the man’s wish is to be cremated and fired from a cannon? Hmmm… Rumor has it that Johnny will perhaps provide the cannon, isn’t that what friends are for? So the literary world loses another fine author. A big thanks to E who decided to inform the entertainment world with a scroll across the bottom of their programs reading “…Today, Hunter S. Thompson accidentally fatally shot himself in the head…” Accidentally fatally shot himself in the head…hmmm…guess no one proofread that sentence for clarity. Nice. Reason number two would be none other than the fine Academy Awards. Now all of us true Johnny fans know that he has a snowball’s chance in hell of actually being awarded anything this year. I mean come on; if he couldn’t win one for Pirates, which was one of the most original cinematic characters of all times, how does his portrayal of J. M. Barrie have even the tiniest shot in the dark? So I guess the Academy likes to tease us…just dangling the bait in our faces and then snatching it away. I’m convinced that it will take Johnny’s death for most of the world to actually realize the talent that it has lost. (Sigh) Finally, talks of the next Pirates are in the making, I hear. Yet another reason for him to visit our fine city owned by none other than the mouse himself.So…even if I don’t get to see him this time…I’m getting closer! Dammit!

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

To have this forever...

Is it possible for a relationship to be like this forever? I had lunch with Rob today and as we’re sitting there eating I’m feeling giddy happy to just be sharing time with him and I start pondering this thought. Granted, we’ve only been together about 4 months, but we’ve spent a lot of time together over those months and I start to think how odd it is that I still feel this great feeling just being around him. I suppose I might be on to something special here. I mean really, is it possible that you can find someone and really have that great feeling just to be sharing time with them for the rest of your life? You know the feeling I’m talking about…usually it only happens during the very beginning of a relationship when you just get so excited or happy to see someone and when you do you have that stupid grin plastered on your face and that special twinkle in your eye. I felt that way with Rob today and I realized how long it has been since I felt that way about someone even this far into a relationship. Sitting there, eating lunch with him, and it was nothing out of this world or special or anything like that…just a regular lunch, but there’s nowhere in the world that I would have rather been at that moment than with him. I love him, I really do and that scares me, for so many reasons.After my relationship with Kenn ending so incredibly poorly, I said I wasn’t going to love again, but I guess we don’t often have a choice in that matter do we? Love moves in and takes hostages and it doesn’t care whether you want to open yourself up to someone like that again or not. So I love him and that terrifies as well as thrills me. As I have said in the past, it is odd to find someone who makes the relationships in your past that you thought were so important and the people you thought you were so connected to feel out of place, but the connection I share with Rob is one I haven’t experienced in years. It is a good feeling though and despite my fear I think we have a real shot at having something both of us have looked for for years. I hope that I will find I am right.

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